Monday, February 15, 2010

Stronger

Have you ever been so wrought with emotion that you couldn't even speak? And I'm not talking that momentary kind where you're just upset that something didn't go your way. I mean true, raw emotion that leaves you speechless. In place of words...maybe tears...or laughter...or love...or anger...or happiness...or sadness? The kind that develops in the moment you realize you're in love. Or when someone you love for dies. Or when someone you thought was a true friend betrays you. Or when your best friend says something that makes you laugh until you can't breathe...the kind of laughter that heals your soul.

I recently experienced that kind of emotion.

I didn't even realize the moment was happening until I realized my face was wet. It brought me to tears. Not tears of sadness. Tears of appreciation. There are times that you don't realize how much someone or something means to you until stop and really look at it.

I'm beginning to believe my spirit is healing. My ability to feel and embrace emotion is coming back. The indifference and wall I had built put up to protect myself is beginning to crumble.

Each day, I'm growing stronger and more confident in who I am and what my purpose is.

I can't take all the credit. I've been blessed with an amazing source of encouragement, inspiration, support and love.

I hope I don't lose it any time soon.